I really do hate being mean to people, and putting them down, because you defiantly can tell when someone has an over load of cocky, arrogance and self obsessed, that it's all fake, it's faux confidence, they just do it to try to come off as if they feel good about themselves, so people can bring them down, it's really pathetic.
Than they have the goal to try and bring someone else down, I think it's just their age.
I've seen, herd, and said and done it all, and trust me, boys aren't the only ones using people to get some play, if a girl is horny, and doesn't want to have worry about anything she PB's haha, it's fun. It's all a game to me, you make this person get off, or you hear them fake it while you're in your mind thinking of someone else, everyone does it.
I get off on myself, my own voice my own touch my own body, my own thoughts, not the person on the other end of the line, I'm just into have people listen to me when I do stuff, it's hot and it doesn't mean I love the person, expect anything from them, or whatever.
I haven't had sex in a year and some months since I've gone celibate, and I need my own realize, it's just hilarious what cult the Internet has formed in these children who are nothing in the real world and are just searching for a social group to fit into.
I think it's probably just because well not to be mean, I'm not against fat people at all, but he's probably really unhappy because of it, I told "mr.g" haha i do that because i don't want him to get mad at me for talking about him, but anyone, i told g that Bradford, and seriously what kind of name is that? bradford and the fresh prince of bellair?
It seems like he just made it up to sound like he has a homoerotic name, and has money, I've noticed that about a lot of chat names, they all have these names that seem like they watched an episode of the realworld and than referred to themselves as that from than on, but anyway, he said he's over 280 pounds, I'm sorry but that's fucking unhealthy, i mean next to him i'd look like a lady bug, or dime like Mr. g said. He just has to be unhappy about that.
This kid i PBed said he just did it because I was easy, duh i was easy, i was throwing back the drinks, and plus he knew someone who hurt me, and i just did it because of that.
"mr.g" might be who he is, he might throw bunk plays like he does and play girls over, but oh well that's him, i don't care, i know the him that he shows me even if it is a lie, and this kid is just so jealous of him because he doesn't look as good as him, and just get his sloppy seconds, maybe if this kid got a substantial personality, didn't try so hard, and got a better education and didn't jock "mr.g" so much, he could find a girl of his own and could be a almost decent person, Just don't fucking say you used me, I didn't even want to talk to him until he said he knew "Mr.g". And anyway, I thank him for doing what he did because at least I got to talk to "mr.g" one pastime and laugh and it got to be ended on a good note, so yeah, bitch please.
Yeah he has the fact he made me cry, over him?! Ha oh please, the kid who I liked and I now know that I can't have and that I'm fine with because all I want for him is to be happy, and if not having makes him happy, and he other girls to do it, that's fine with me.
Trying to insult with such petty little second grade bullshit, oh now he may get his little blinkchat cult members after, oh God it's so hilarious.
I think I'm going to pick up working again to keep me busy, I feel immature dealing with these people, It's not my age group, even the ones my age are often below me, and not very well educated and are into the most simple of things.
I'm going to drive up to Philly this week and put in my nursing apps, I think now that I have my RN i should do okay, and I'm going to start writing out my plans and blue prints, schedules, and sponsor for my Free Clinics for children with autism who need treatment and housing program, i need to call Dr.Chillinger early Monday, he wants to fax me some of the co op books, and all the different insurance plans out there, and what a lot of the people can and cannot get.
You're probably thinking wtf is she talking about, well awhile ago I had to get a surgery done, and i got very ill from it, and had an opened wound that got infected and it almost killed me the infection went to my heart, i had to get reconstructive surgery, in the hospital for 6 months, changed my life forever, my Mom sued, i didn't want to, she did, i won 5.6 million for one case, than I won another for the negligence and life impact for 23.5 million.
All my friends were like you're so lucky you have to do nothing for the rest of your life so do this do that buy me this, no i got rid of a lot of my friends after that, but anyway, I was in 7th grade and we had to do a report on how animals help us in the world, I did a report on dolphins and how they made many break through for autistic children, ever since than, learning about the children, what their disorder is like, and how so many people just don't want to find that key that can help them, I've had dreams of starting a free residential rehabilitation clinic for children with autism, When I went to nursing school, I got close to someone who was a DR on a psych unit, and he said he'd help support me, and he helped me find tons of sponsors, investors, MD, and special case nurses to go along, so in 4 years we are all suppose meet, talk everything over, get our ideas out on the table and get the bugs of the system worked out, and recruit for our first batch of patients, I was on the MLS the other day looking for a property, i found a highschool sold as is, need work done but is right in-between PA, DEL, NJ, NY it's very close to all them, and near and airport and bus terminal for people coming from out of state, and hopefully even out of the country.
I hate that we have to wait for so long, but that's when this DR is going to be retiring.
I'd really love to be able to branch it out, maybe have one for all neurological disorder or some sort, kind of like the special needs school I use to work at and the camp I use to be a counselor for.
Just when I get caught up in these melodrama situations like these, I always come back to this and just think of how much bullshit their nonsensical little drama is, and it sometimes makes me angry, that people waste their selvs on doing absolutely nothing for this world, and just leach off of their parents, and friends.
Like my Mom has a bar, she borrowed money from me and bought three bars one in Florida, NY and philly, and I swear, I see some drama, but none of it, not even drunks can compare to it, they are smart and have more intelligent opinions than some of these people.